GENIUS

I dont know why I think that if i leave everything to the last minute, it will all go away.
Now im just built up with a list of essays and folder work for graphics.
Bad times.
OH WELL
on the plus side:
- im happy
- im so chilled out
- Ed's enjoying work
- i think i cheered Lauren up abit today
- passed the ol' theory test with flying colours
- Gonna have a nice weekend
- my hair looks decent at this very second
- family guy is on

Yes, ok, that seems very sad that these things are making me happy

but
ive just had a nice day.

I know Haz Alice and Lauren will probably read this
and
I AM ALWAYS HERE FOR YOU HOMIES :)
NO MATTER WHAT.


(bit more cheese)

hmm
So much to do
but i dont ever seem to care.
OR
i have about half an hour of thinking..."right, in half an hour im gna get up n write all my essays"
and then when its time to
my motivation has run out :S

this is rubbish and pointless.
OH WELL.

it just makes sense

LIL BABY JEANETTE.
Alice and Kittys birthday pressent,
from me
;)
"she must be a fucking orphan, cos shes a miserable ginger prikkk"

I miss Temeka. She is on my list of things to do.
;)
I also miss my birthday. I wish i could re-do my 16th, 17th and 18th birthday again. Best days everrr !
Although, i love this whole build up to christmas. The tree still isnt up :|. I know its early but i like it being up early.
Darkness,
flashing lights,
warmth.
(L)

Germany was thee best. I love sunshine and generally being on holiday.

Ive washed like 2 hours having my "early lunch", watching tv and now looking at pictures.
Jheeez.


The highway code is where its happening :)

Short Tempered

I love him so much.

We all have our own individual problems and even though some may be "bigger" than others, we all see our own as the worst. I guess that is because it is happening to us.

I feel like i have a few right now
but nothing compares to another and I just feel so bad for them.

It puts my own into perspective and it pisses me off when others dont take into consideration anyone elses feelings but their own.

One minute i see where things are coming from and then the next i feel like i dont want to get involved.

Its gay to say but i really do feel like ive matured a lot within the past two months and things which i used to play up to, now, dont seem like anything. Infact, i couldnt give a shit.

I still can be immiature about people and things still piss me off but i have a new way of dealing with them.

I find myself worrying a lot.
Not even necessarily about myself; more about other people. Not that I mind,
it takes me away from my own problems. Thats if you can call it a "problem" as such.
I know i have amazing friends who are there for me whatever happens but sometimes I dont feel like things are worth sharing.
I probably see it for worse than it actually is. Maybe.

Unnecessary comments are annoying. Why say them?

Remember who has always been there for you so why get up the arse of people who end up slagging you off?

Who knows.
I cant even make my own opinion up because it changes within each minute of the moment.

"if you havnt got anything nice to say - dont say it"
But what if you put a wink or a 'lol' after the statement you have just made. Do you really mean it? Or are you making light of the fact you have subtly told someone something nasty? Or is it a joke altogether for the faint hearted?
"your relationship makes me feel sick. JOKE"
...because that was nice.

I dont know why I signed up for this university thing. I didnt want to do it in the first place and i have said it sinse the just gone summer.
Ive always hated "begging friends". There is a fine difference between making friends and begging friends and im always worried about which category i fit into.
If someone wants to be my friend...then ill welcome them with open arms,
but does that mean they are begging my friendship?

Being shallow IS WEIRD.
Do you like people more for the fact that they look good/are attractive?
Or do you prefer people who dont care?

This was on a programme i watched this morning.

Listening is the key.



I dont even know myself.



Would you ever abort an un-born child?

21 questions to go.

SHOOT THE RUNNER

THIS IS WHY IM A TURNING INTO A JEALOUS, PARANOID WRECK; YOUR FEEDING IT.

I saw it.
I read it.
Now the paranoia spreads on to you;
did I read it?
Did i see it?

Now lets make up some bullshit to get you out of the sticky situation. Thats the way you handle things. Panic. Twist.

You wont read this but i dont care.

Like playing a game.

"No period, no fun"

jheeez
im toooo open.

I love you
Alice, Haz, Kitty, Lauren and Molly.
My best ones.

I know im such a cringe all the time on here but whenever i write a blog is when im feeling bare apreciative to have you lot :)))

Lets get this party started,
ready,
set,
bang.

I HATE THIS

God,
Yesterday was so lovely; jokes, memories and tea with Alice on the steps and then savacentre. I havnt laughed that much in a long time and awh :)

Last night was so lovely; dinner with Ed at the ol' cavery and then back to his for laughs and a cuddle on his LILO blow up bed ahaha.

Came home in a good mood.

Bit of tea,
Bit of Tee-v,
bed.

AGONY ALL THE NIGHT,
PAIN IN THE GOOD EAR.
20 mins of sleep...tops.

Doctors this morning at an early hour with
Dr David.
I expected a man and all my mum said when we got out was:
"She was Indian...and she had a last name like David. She MUST have married someone not Indian"
:\

BEARING IN MIND BOTH MY EARS WERE OOZING WITH 'DISCHARGE' (hate that fucking word) AND THATS ALL SHE COULD THINK OF TO SAY.
haha
in a way...this sums up MAJULIE down to a T.

To add to my oozing, pulsating and painful ears (both of them)- my phone FUCKING broke.

'please insert the correct sim card'

THAT IS THE CORRECT SIM CARD. FINE. FUCK YOU. ILL 'INSERT' A CHARGER IN YOUR BOTTOM. SEE HOW YOU LIKE THAT.

'Cannot charge battery. Please insert sony erricson charger."

¬_¬

YOU TAKING THE PISS?
I HAD TO RING LARISSA TO APOLOGISE FOR NOT TURNING UP TO DRAMA. AGAIN.
I HAD TO TEXT DANNY TO CANCEL MY DRIVING LESSON.
I HAD TO TEXT TEMEKA TO CANCEL OUR DINNER DATE...

...bearing in mind i now talk like a deaf person. Only pronouncing certain syllables.

Using a temporary phone.



Therefore, I decided to watch Jimmy Carr - telling jokes.
This was, indeed, JOKES.

Apart from the fact every time i laugh or jolt, my ears OOZ.

I HATE THE FUCKING WORD OOZ TOO.

Not in the best mood of my life, not gonna lie.

Sympathy for me?

Havnt eaten properly for like 2 weeks (hardly anything) yet i look FAT.

"who needs a six pack when you can have a barrel?"

:)

Only a real friend will tell you when your face is dirty

"Friendship doubles your joys, and divides your sorrows."

I LOVE YOU LOT MORE THAN LIFE :)

+ A MILLION BILLION MORE :D

GOD

What a prik. (not God)

Maybe it's me?
Why do we make more problems than we had already?

I dont even understand myself so fuck knows how anyone else gets me?
I am a nightmare. Thats my problem.

Cleaning sunshine - good film

Its been a while, apologies for the emo blogs haha
but now, i am happy and well chilled; finally got everything sorted.

I love the whole concept of "having a friend" and i believe that i have a bunch of "true" friends :). I feel really lucky at the moment actually. I can openly talk about anything with them and they never judge me. Also, they are all so considerate and we are so comfortable with eachother that we never take anything to heart.
(L)

Im really happy with Ed aswell :), i feel like everything is pretty perfect at the moment. Of course, there are a few ups and downs but it never really matters because it gets sorted.
No relationship is perfect and i like that. It makes it more interesting and keeps me on edge, rather than bored and settled.

I still have a few hundred essays still to write (:s) and a FAT earache, but Ashleigh and Sam are coming round in an hour or so, so im going to tidy my room and maybe write one essay :)
Simple things please me and ive become obsessed with television.

I hope this feeling lasts to be honest because there is nothing worse than feeling insecure, sad or angry.
On the other hand, i LOVE being emotional. I hate the thought of crying but at the time its such a relief.

I cant wait until christmas. All i want to do is buy myself or someone else a party dress and have a lovely night out :)))
We are putting the christmas tree up next week seeing as we have a "new" living room (L).

Free periods with Alice make me laugh more than anything :) Discussing baby names.
JEANETTE.

Thats my nans name :)

Im always in a "walking to heaven" mood,
feeling the sunshine in the cold,
this is happiness.

swollen eyes

What a horrible week.
I havnt been myself
and just been generally emotional. Which has not done me justice.
However, i have got loads done and got loads off my chest.

Had my hair cut today and i really like it. I also got the chance to dress up in sequins and BARE makeup for the bridge house. mmmm cocktails.

Things are not annoying me now. Maybe its because ive got everything out and had the fattest cry of my life.
Cried all day actually aha
rather pathetic but i had a good reason because of what happened.

Fingers crossed things will be good again.

can not wait until christmas.

sequins

Had a chilled Thursday night
sorted for tomorrow
bit of Bromley
clothes rail and trousers (Y)
sequins
yep

x
o

meehhh

Its like running from a firework- the chance of getting hit.

Im going to make this blog private soon. I dont like everyone reading this and im going to mainly use it instead of a diary for the simple reason that i can never be bothered to write; typing is easier.

People are so rude and expect too much.
Why try so hard to be something you are not. I've stopped making such an effort now. Im fed up with contradiction and all that jazz.
I've stopped caring about what people think.
Trying hard at school has become important and I'm determined to get my EMA for once haha.

My list is slowly getting crossed off and I'm definitely getting there.
I want a nice job for christmas, it doesnt necessarily have to be a christmas job; I just want the whole late christmasy evenings with the decorations.

Maaan i love clothes
and shoes
and cheap coats
and weird bags.

I feel like ive matured a bit recently and not going to piss about anymore.

I also feel like i bore people to the point that they cant be bothered to talk to me anymore. Maybe i am boring? greatt.
Im losing friends that i dont want to.
All it is that i dont want to keep going out and spending money on a load of bollox. I'm going out and getting dressed up and not needing a coat. EMOTIONAL

One of them moods.
Probably being boring again.

2 in 1

So
i am scared about going into school tomorrow;
period 1: Havnt read anymore of the book.
Period 2: I think ive borrowed and lost an expensice art book, my homework has been sent about 2 mins ago (2 weeks late) AND i havnt done a mood board.
Period 3: Cant find where i saved the essay IVE ACTUALLY DONE about shakespearian shizzle and i think im gna have to do it again :'(
period 4: free...BUT have to do graphics/english work
period 5: Havnt finished the essays..still have 1 and a half to do

:'(
and i HAVE to go in because i get EMA now.
GOD MAN

prepare
because im gonna be in a mess ahaha

ahh well
life goes on.
Alice is going to be pleased...two blogs in one night. WTF.

I cut Eds hair...he looks like a sexy mofo ;)

peace and quiet
night
x
o

i'd like to dedicate this to Alice Jones

I have become so lazy; i did no homework/coursework last week.

I also turn into a jelous bitch when im drunk lol...well...maybe not a bitch but certainly too jelous when there is probably no need.

Had a lovely day today and i always feel so much better once ive got something done, even if it is one essay that should have been done 5 weeks ago. The point is i got it done.

Kitty is one of the only people who recognises that im actually RUBBISH at getting important things done. She said she is going to tell my mother to take my internet out of my room haha
here is a perfect example
at this moment in time
im texting,
talking to alice on facebook chat,
stalking on facebook,
on twitter
AND
doing this.
What a nightmare,
all this when i should be doing an essay for mr Griffin and some graphics work.
I NEED to work hard this week and get back ontop of things because i am really getting LOW LOW LOW

I desperately want to get into journalism when i get older; ive finally found what i want to do and what i aspire to be.
I love knowing about things and finding out.
I also am inlove with a few celebrities; Ed saves me the showBIZ page every day in the SUN newspaper ahaha.

Money is slowly coming but im GUTTED about not getting the Harrads elf job. They said i was too late with an aplication but they are going to consider me another time.
Im feeling working in a cafe? or somewhere like that?
TIPS.

woah...another follower on TWITTER ;)
i adore the word TWEET ahaha
:D

Now my lungs are clear, im going to start running &/or swimming. I want to be as fit as a fiddle....and im also ignoring the fact ive literally just sat with Phoebe and pigged out on about 10000000000000000000000000000 pringles. I dont even like pringles
GOD DAMNIT!

Ok now i will finish
and go write some of an essay
or do some graphics essay thing

TO DO
- First essay about Alex
- Last essay about the ending, english/american ending
- Graphics essay about modern art/new design
- Mood board for modern art/new design
- 8 Initial design ideas
- finish final specification for graphics folder
- research for graphics folder
- Finish reading the handmaids tale
- do UCAS form
- finish and perfect personal statement

I KNOW! SO MUCH!

and tonight i have to cut Eddy Bubbles hair lol
which im quite looking forward to
so instead of doing all this, ive also been looking at about 20 million mens hair styles lol
GOD!
right
tonight i need to do one essay for english
and
the graphics thing about modern art.

HEY HO
LETS GO


ALICE IS A SEXY MOFO
(L)
X
O

LAUREN HAS A SMELLY SANDWICH

Well
Ed is pregnant
and i dont know what to do about it
or how i feel.
Lauren is also
as am i

We ned Jeremy's help
or Jerry.

I MEANT NEED GOD DAMNIT

jesus

Im happy today
and the sun is out
forgot it was pink day
so i am wearing black and white
ffs man
although
i do have a purple bag


Lauren is always late
i am pregnant before i come on all the time
worrying abit
but it is always fine.

embarassed myself twice yesterday
1. when i came into the common room and sat on the shiny computer chairs, i slipped off, the chair went flying back into kerri and i have rawrly bruised my bun
NICE
2. I went round to each person after school in the common room wishing them a good half term and before i went...i was like "yeah ill see you all after half term...have a wicked one"
and then harriet was like "what?! ur not gna be here tomorrow?"
BUMMER
waste of fucking time and i looked like such a dick

pizza tonight
wahey

AS IF IM NOT FAT ENOUGH
;)

i love Lauren Ellis :)
x

Tea, Ed and my mum (L)

My emotions are getting the better of me. I keep getting so pissed off at small things and emotional over other things when people are trying to help me.
Ive also realised that immaturity and contradiction REALLY get on my nerves.

Its that feeling where i am DYING to say something but then again is it really worth it? Do i want to cause a possible argument? No. So i guess ill stay quiet unless it gets rediculous.

My mum is the best and i always hate it after i snap at her because she is only trying to help. I hate this whole university deal.
Rain is sorrow
and im really just in a weird mood these days.

Ed is the lovliest male (boy or man? I dont know) i have ever met.

I think too much and let my thoughts get a bit out of control.
Its gay because everyone says "talking about it releases the tension" but it really doesnt with me. I get so deep in thought all the time about small things. Then again i am a really open person and talk about exactly how im feeling but i dont drop things sometimes
I've adopted this quality from my dad (thank you :/) and i do not believe that it is a good one.
I wind myself up rediculous amounts.

However, other times, i get so mellow and just dont think its worth it. I have learnt to go with the flow and it will get sorted but for some things, this just isnt the case.

Jheez man
a happy blog this is not.

Drama and English?
Drama and multimedia?
Broadcasting?
Art and design foundation?
Media and creative writing?
Journalism and media?

SOMEONE TELL ME WHAT TO DO BECAUSE I CANT DECIDE.
I want to do them all.

Un té al'limoné

Sickness? Bloated? Dizzy? Light head? Bubbling stomache? Tired? Cold then hot?

Yes Alice,
lets have a fag and then eat the things we cant :D.
We are going through pregnancy.

What a lovely morning, i still feel like rubbish but atleast im happy :).

Had a lovely weekend and i think this will be a good week (fingers crossed). Recently i feel so airy fairy and dont really know whats going on. All i want to do is get dressed up and go out..but then again im never in the mood to get really drunk. I want to dance to good music with my friends :).
Half term next week (thank god) and im going to relax and do whatever i feel like doing.
ALLOWW THE COLDNESS?
Lets, because it means huge winter coats, gloves and cosiness :)

Me and Alice dressed in the same colours today...un-intentially but ever so funny !



Downe was also a nice little doo-da yesterday. Sam can drive...i will be driving soon.
Sorry for the lower case use of 'i' but i cant be bothered to keep holding down shift; my computer does not do it automatically.
WELLL
this was spontanious.
I have the fattest mood swings recently but always go back to thinking what a lovely life i lead. I also want to move into a flat with a kitten. (Although my poem was sikk today, i do not want to showcase it on the ol' blog as i fear someone will steal it.)

Lets all have a little smile,
:)

i love you
x
o

in-lo-ve

RING ME RING ME RING ME RING ME RING ME RING ME

Im not even joking now, I have had enough. I hate males to be honest. They are all a bunch of lemons and I will kill them all.

I text you all Monday night, then Tuesday morning and what do I get?
"MAYBE I DONT WANT TO RING OR SEE YOU ;)"

:|
yeah, thanks. Also, you'd think he'd try a bit harder with me considering everything that has happened (not that im bringing up the past). Im scared he thinks im too soft and wont break up with him ever....if I was him I would think that but im not :( i just "love" him. Jheeez
LOOK WHAT MY EMO FRIENDS HAVE DONE TO ME ;)

Harriottes a psycho
Alice is an old woman
and Lauren is deputy head girl

can it get any worse?!

YES
because listen to this;
me and Alice went for fag and lemon tea yesterday and just MOANED. Thats all I seem to do I swear to you! Im getting fat-ter and I moan. Who wants me?

Harriotte turned to me in English today and said (in a serious manner):
"look at my dress...its meant to be up here but i wear it down here....hahaha"
then
"Charlotte, feel this bit of hair...its so weird...hahaha"
and THEN
"i want to take over the world and need a master mind...Charlotte you in?"

I ask Alice if her piss is lumanous and she says "errr i duno...ill go check"
:)
Lauren's weird because she just underlines everything
Molly curls her hair to give a "my hair is naturally curly and i cant be asked to straighten it" effect
and Kitty wakes up at stupid'o'clock in the morning

to be honest
i think i am inlove with them all.
I love them all as much as i love myself (almost) ;)

i HATE work
i HATE boys being dickheads and not realising
i HATE adiction to fat girl food
i HATE my stupid hair
i HATE that no one has money and neither do I
i HATE that instead of work...ive done this stupid thing.

GOD MAN

THATS IT...IM WATCHING TEETH...again :|

which is so crap!!!!!
grrrr
go away
now

and talk to me on facebook chat ;)
oh also
if someone else fucking asks me to join mafia wars...i will grow some teeth in my vagina and cut their penis off.
I HATE THAT FILM AHHHHH

give me Thursday NIGHT
because i have the fucking presentation which i havnt done before ¬_¬
thats it
this is now my suicide note
CONGRATULATIONS
bye :) peace.

x
o

what are you laaiiiik

Well i can tell Alice is going to get VERY excited when she realises i've written on my blog.

Im actually feeling fed up today and dont know what to do with myself. For one, yesterday i woke up at Eds shivering even though my skin was hot, i felt sick on the way to watch him play football and had the worst headache of my life.
The day progressed possitively because lounging on the grass, spectating a bunch of men playing football was pleasant...and i was so prowd of Ed. He really is very good at keeping that goal!
So yes, that was nice.

4-2...to Eltham :) (Eds team); lovely jubly.

Even if i did get burnt on my back...

Then we missioned all the way back to Eds house and we both fell asleep on his bed. HOWEVER, when I woke up, my throat felt like something was grating it, my head was boom-banging (whatever that means), i felt like i was going to be sick AND to top it all off...id slept in an awkward position and my arm was dead.

My mum picked me up and i went straight into the shower...to proceed to my own chamber and feel straight to sleep. Swine flu? maybe

ANYWAY...no work today. Good times...except my throat has gone down abit and im left with a rediculously annoying cough ¬_¬
I also wanted to do LOTS of extended project but failed due to the distraction of home movies (L)

Its now 19:43...my nose has began to run and im on the verge of swine flu. How gay.


On a more possitive note, i had the best evening in ages with Ed on Saturday :) Sorbet and rasberries on the swing under the fireworks made my week :D

Also Friday at Adams was a sik jam :) even if i had a few too many snowballs; "GIVE ME A C-H-A-R-L-O-T-T-E.....FILM ME....WRITE ME A SONG...SING A SONG CALLED CHARLOTTE TO ME..EVERYONE LOOK AT ME"

I know thats why you al love me though ;) aha.

Molly and Haz in Devon; miss them :).

ahh Germany next week! I cannot wait! I will miss Ed so much he will never know..but distance and time makes the heart grow fonder and i know it will all be fine :)


Ive learnt alot about myself sinse being at work- ive had so many thoughts about rubbish and i find that i wind myself up alot. I dont talk much if i dont feel the need bit i observe people and day-dream more than the average.
I can also be quite self absorbed; asin, when making small talk with someone...i find myself talking mainly about myself. I hate that aha BUT DEAL WITH IT ;)
Nah i joke...i have also learnt not to judge a book by its cover. I think everyone says "no i dont"....and i didnt think i did...but i do. I base my opinions of people on rumours, the crowd they jam with and apearance and i have been proven wrong many a time. I have finally learnt from that.
I am also too nice and get paranoid easily with how other people think or their actions.
Lastly, through observing people too much, i tend to realise they do very annoying things which annoy the fuck out of me lol. I WANT to like them because everyone else seems to BUM them (which is also jarring) but...i just cant. Its weird. I like who i like (mostly everyone)...and i dont who i dont. I dont even dislike them...just not my cup of tea if you get me?

too milky they are (Y)

Hypocrits irritate me also (i dont even know if ive spelt that right).

Gosshhh...ark at me aye ;). No sleep makes me a misserable cow (apart from the days leading up to the huge misserable day) ask Ed. He gets misserable, moany lottie all the time aha. He knows how to cope now though.

I love my friends too much ive decided :)
When they met me for lunch the other day...it was just so lovely (barring Alice and Kitty) but seeing them in the evening was just as good :D and singing together. They are the best and i know i can trust them with everything :).

i respect them ;)

However, i miss seeing people who i am close with but not AS close...like Lucy, Amy, Harriet etc
and Ashleigh
dont see them lot very much anymore
and its so fun when i do :).

Sams on wednesday shall be a respectful night
no drink for me
driving tomorrow morning

peace
love
and
all
good
things.

This was rubbish and bit emo; sorry Alice ;)

x
o

duck sized duck

So i can feel the excitement your experiencing; the realization that Charlotte has actually written a post on the ol' blog :)

BONER? yes.

Such a weird weekend, actually, take that back.
Such a weird day yesterday.

Sweaty bus, 3 hours, washing up liquid and beetroot ice poles, white star, forest hill, Morden, poplar tree, rejection, circle, mens toilets and tears.
nice one (Y)


Nails that are all different lengths make me feel slightly sick, i feel like i should cut mine.
Hummm...
so
God forbid results day
graphics and English were the worst things of my life maybe. GOD DAMN IT!

buz buzzing flies also make me want to commit suicide.


so anyway, on a high note, weather was "buffting" yesterday. "Allow" how nice it was, "bare" caught a colour and "all sorts".

My dad keeps calling me Darnell. Bad times.

Days out with my girls make me smile so much, they are THEE best. Trust.

you u you u you u you u you u you u.

"ee-ar theres the library"
"I'm narf happy"

My friends think im an oap chav. Again, this is bad times.

VIVA LAS VEGAS

Alice, i value our friendship homiee...you are certainly a duck sized duck.
Lauren, my agony aunt on a new level & "i've had the time of my life" being your homie.
Haz, ohh MATE love you LONGTIME, i could stare at you almost as long as you stare at yourself, you beautiful creature, you ;).
Kitty, If you mix my elements with your molecule, boyyy we'd make a sikk molecular structure. (I hope to God this makes me sound kind of intelligent)

AHAHAHA CHEESE...but...m sharing some love right there!

i (L) Freaky Friday
woo so lets have a good week and get mullered and have partiessss
yay? or nay?

"ive waited a good while for this birthday"
"yeah...i'd say about 18 years...ish"

haha

"you cotton headed nini muggins"
"cotton muffin headed nini head bummer..whatever it was"
Aha Alice


Dont make life harder that it already is, everyone chill, get on and be nice :D

peace
in
x
o

PRO-SAY-SING

Right
Everyone needs to cheer up right now :) Live for the day.

Everything that is stressful will be over soon because, remember, time will not stand still so just try your best for now and after, everything will be amazing.

Trust me.

Making the summer list today at lunch was just so good and i'm excited to do all them things with you guys :)
I will finish media and graphics soon but right now, i feel like blog writing.

Also, i am looking forward to this weekend:
-nice day in Downe
-Sam G's house
-girls night @ Laurens

lovely jubly
loads of pictures
lets just chill out and do well
.
.
.
Had the most amazing weekend with Ed and saw Lauren briefly to show her my new clothes
then Alice and Kitty for a few hours to stare at clouds and make up a brand new language aha
no Haz tho :'(

however, this weekend
I will be committed as coursework will be FINISHED
finally, no joke, i am so relieved to finally get it all done...well...not yet...but will be soon enough :D

It amazes me that last week everyone in graphics was way ahead...but now..i am kinda ahead
actually this is praising myself
but who cares? Praise me to :D

I LOVE MAJOULIES
so much
you dont even realise
looked at old pictures earlier
and awh
bless us ;)
emo-tional ;)
oh baby

how pointless is this

i know your reading this thinking:

"ohh ffs get a grip, YOUR BORING"

but I love being boring right now, because its keeping me sane and not stressed and every little thing that happens, pleases me so much because its something new :)

even the boobie story with Mr H...bloody funny i tell thee.
Ask me if I havn't told you yet ;) aha

I love you Edwarrddd, you amazing boyfriend you :)
He only got me new perfume (gwen steffani and sarah J parker)...which i WANTED bare
and done the virus thing on my computer :)
I pick up on all the wrong things he does probably more than the good, but trust me, the good does not go un-noticed. I just get paranoid too much now days, sign of getting OLD maybe?

hummmm
Alice...who is a duck sized duck...is currently loading the pictures from sunday :)
ahh i love summer
i want a copy of the summer list please?

So please, smile :)
(mainly aimed at Harriottes blog)
i love you
(aimed at the reader)

"CHILL WINSTON"
":S...but who is Winston?!"

:) Eds niece Sophie cracks me up.

"I feel like such a pikey teenaged mum"

ahhh

FINITO SIGNORA
x
o

Strap-on

"what a wonderful world this would be" - Sam Cooke
what a lovely song :)



Im feeling motivated at the moment, Ed MAKES me do work which is good because at his house i got so much done...well more than i probably would have done. I feel like everything will be ok coursework-wise..aslong as i put the effort in. We all will be alright.

The other night was so lovely, a night with the girls, my homies ;) Always manage a good night.
"if love was a metaphor...we'd be making love"

"Alice...he has dreadlocks"
"right...lets sing some newton faulkner n maybe hell talk to us.."

haha it only worked tho ;)
Queens of the karioke

Haz telling everyone in the pub she had glandular fever
and Lauren making peace and reassuring me Ed still loves me aha.

Awh i love them :)
Although i felt so bad that Ed had booked for us to go for dinner...the night was so good and ive changed from last year...nothing can ruin a night with the "females" haha. (L)

I missed Ed tho.


So yeahh and the morning to that day was almost the best day in ages.
Woke up at 8 (earliest in a long while) to Haz n Lauren..home by half 8...then had my driving lesson at half past 9.
KING OF THE ROAD!
Driving still drunk...so much fun trust me ;) haha

Driving home felt like such an achievment...after this i went home and made myself a tuna and cheese panini..which i might add was sex on a plate...

OOH LA LA was the hairdressers i skipped off to..got a weirdly nice haircut...and then the legends offered me a job. OOH LA LA, im excited :)



MONEY IS NOTHING BETWEEN US, this will be the case as it wont be alot, however, "ive got money in my pocket and i just cant get no love"...no money...and i am full of love ;)

After all this excitement Ed asked me to stay round his. Gay atfirst because he exploded with anger but we sorted things and went to play pool near ikea. He let me win :)
Then...Ed won £10 in a machine. bonus. However, he lost it all afterwards :\. I hate gamblers ;)

my third kebab on Eds bed was suprisingly very nice :) Ive never been a fan...but Ed's transformed me- he is the fast food king ;)
Breakfast in bed again and yeah lazy mornings in bed are the best. Despite Ed bullying me to do coursework, although the motivation is good.


BOO YAKASHA !! "do you know what that means?"
"well...i thought i did until you said that.."
"what did you think..?"
"i am kool?"
"NO IT MEANS KILL WHITE PEOPLE !!"




haha...38 year old man who gives me and Alice free drinks. SCORE!

Ipod back in my pocket...

"dont worry be happy"...moto for today as i have played this song atleast 8 times sinse i have been in the gaff.

Leanne won project runway, im pleased as i would wear her clothes.

I love my life right now.

x
o

Strawberry jam with a hint of Champagne

Tea- drink of the Gods.
I'm not even joking, i feel unsatisfied if i don't drink it in the morning.

I didn't go for a run this morning which i feel annoyed about, however, i did wake up before 11 today :D; 9:36. SCORE. I didn't do much though, had tea and toast for breakfast and watched shameless from last night. I go through stages where i love and hate that programme but right now, i think its ok :)
Now...I have made the decision to put on my party dress as this raises my mood. Always. It also distracts me from my hair...which honestly...is bad news. The fringe has grown out and gives me curtains when i attempt to pull it off anyway. I shall walk down to the hairdressers soon and see if they have anything available for today or tomorrow after my driving lesson.

Talking of driving...love of my life.

Prioritising a blog before drama coursework is so wrong but it feels so right at the same time haha, facebook left me one notification to wake up to- how disappointing.

Right, 11:30 is the time that i shall close everything but Microsoft word and itunes. Ed will be awake soon hopefully and everyone will go on msn because its meant to be the hottest day of the year later on :) so therefore, we shall all go out and have GOOD TIMES.

right, drama work WILL be completed by 3 today. If its not i WILL get someone to slap me round the face.

astala vista....baby.

x
o

The buildation of the "waldrobe"

Recently i just think about my friends alot and it scares me so much that we will part off.
I believe that its true, friends really are forever and they do anything and everything for me :).

MAJOULIES...i hate the whole "naming a group" thing...but they are majoulies, nothing more, nothing less :) and i love them with all my heart :)

Boys come and go...and yes i do feel INLOVE with Ed at the moment and i love every second im with him- no exaggeration...but who knows whats going to happen..we could split up (which also scares me abit)...but i know that me and my friends wont :) so tbh...i want to make the most of them right now and do more things together without the need to invite boyfriends (sorry).

Everything really is awesome right now. I am adicted to sims castaway again lol (on the ps2). Ed put a weird version on my phone but it is a rubbish version and took me like an hour to complete. Having done this i then got called "a plank", bad times.
However..the plankcaller can be forgiven because he made me breakfast in bed this morning, it was so unexpected. Crumpets and a large mug of tea (L), x o.

Im also going to get up early tomorrow and go for a run...without my ipod :'(...Eds inspired me by making me do ten minutes on his cycling machine and i did 2.6miles :D.
Smoking is no more...unless Alice n Kitty REALLY make me have a roll up lool.

Adam Smith is back.

Americas next top model and Gok (who my mum calls Wok)'s fashion fix make me want to go shopping and then to a party or club n get drunk and dance and get all dressed up in a party dress because my mother brought me up well ;).

Watched surfs up earlier when i got out the shower, it really is one of my most favourite films, just cheers me up; alongside pineapple express ofc.

Hummmmm my blog is really boring compared to everyone else's. Just gonna chill out tonight, listening to abit of the marley's, Dylan, Kearl Jenkins, beach boys etc
easy listen music

i need to go shopping
&&
I love days spent in London with my personal tour guide..



LUURRRVVVV TYRRAAA

p.s, i have realised i started the last two with "so"...that has stopped because i figured it was very sad lol.

x
o